december 20
thursday 5.50

Right now i'm browsing at my 2007 planner (would you believe i have a planner?) and look for anything memorable that happened this year. Nope, this isn't a year-end report or anything.. just stories of my misfortunes actually.. I usually jot down events and what had happened during that a certain day. Grabe, ang bilis talaga ng panahon, no? I also can't believe i had this planner.. I bought it last January when my mom, the twins and i went to Moa to watch the world pyrolympics last january 13. I was really into buying it 'cause i saw miggy's picture on it along with some artists (yeah, i was really into chicosci starting late 2006 and i really like them..what a lame excuse..).

January was good. I even wrote a note on january 1: "A new beginning! Time has it's own way of healing old wounds. Be happy and strong! YOU can do it!" Haha.. I really wrote it as a memo.. i was feeling good that things will eventually unfold if i think positive. I was kind of busy that month but i was kind of scared too. I believed new years has it's positive effects on people regarding chances, changes and new beginings. I also got hooked on dvd's..

February. "EVEN IF EVERYONE SAYS YOU DON'T STAND A CHANCE, DON'T GIVE UP ON YOUR DREAMS". It was filled with plans. I even jotted down that i saw Champ of Hale somewhere.. hahaha! Naka 1 year ako.. (2/11) My college friends and i went to watch mutya ng san sebastian and a mystery person came into our house looking for me. Turns out a bad idea.

March. "Lord, when i lose hope because my plans have came to nothing, help me to remember that
your love is always greater than my disappointments and your plans for my life are better than my dreams." My first time to watch Ramcy and Fred perform ballet (neo filipino: espana extension). Got hooked on Grey's Anatomy 3rd season, got busy looking for work, i regret things i shouldn't have heard/ seen.

April. "The future has many names: for the weak it is unattainable; for the fearful: it is unknow; for the bold, it is opportunity." - victor hugo I was still filled with plans, busy but then i was really.. hopeful and scared. I had an opportunity but i turned it down because i think it was not meant for me. Andrew texted after a loooooong time. I also saw Sir M.A. for the first time in 4 years.. i got scared and nervous so i pretended i didn't remember him.. tsk! I almost forgot! Elaine and i went to Nu studios for the first time.. na meet si Dylan at naging semi-stalker ni sir Sonny! hehe

May. Things fell apart. Mom's wallet got snatched, i got so addicted in watching dvd's and my aunt went to canada. Last gig ng rivermaya (not sure). I also saw someone unexpected.. The person who makes me feel nervous, excited and weird. The twins went somewhere for a week and for the first time this year i felt really alone along with hopelessness..

July. I saw a mythical creature after a long time. He's changed drastically. Sports a long hair (parang nag shampoo lang!) and still as cute as ever! haha.. He's my classmate in CLC in kindergarten. I don't think he remembers me though.. i never got to greet alyssa and his brother a happy birthday.. I received an unexpected message after a looooooong time from someone.

September. After 7 years, Anne and i got to visit the school of the magical and the mysterious. An unforgivable thing has happened again. I got to see Dhudz at the end of the month along with some classmates after a long time. Fall out boy went here for a concert.. and i wasn't there.

October. A shock to most of us; the bombings doesn't seemed to cease and my Dad was there at glorietta when it happened.

November. I got to see my classmates again during aimee's birthday and also My mythical grandfather's birthday. One year na rin since the last time i saw them..

December.. Another high light would be watching Snow White and hanging out with Elaine and Ramcy and i really had a grand time being with them. And meeting the "Queen" :) there's a news that my classmate in high school died. December has yet to unfold it's secrets..

Most of the months not listed are blank. Yep, no actions during those months. It was filled with hopelessness and despair and a lot of whining on how crappy my life is when actually it is not. I am having a long vacation and i have managed to learn from it the way i should. I need to grow up and start seeing life in a different manner. If there were things to be happy about that happened this year that would be being conscious about life's blessings and on how to be grateful about it no matter what although it takes a lot of patience to see something in a different light. Seeing my friends and family, spending time with them and being grateful of every moment spent. You'll never know when they'll be gone and regret never telling them how much they mean. Thank God for new beginnings, chances and for the blessings!