i'm distracted by a number of young lads beside me a while ago that's why i wasn't able to do what i had in mind. they're rowdy over friendster profiles of young lasses in bikinis and talks lewdly about their sexuality. first of all, i don't really care. the thing is, i like it quiet when i do my stuff, i mind my own business but these guys are making it hard for me to do whatever i want to do. it was too noisy to focus on writing and i lost my train of thoughts when those guys disturbed me. damn.

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earlier, i was with my college friends attending a baptismal. i drank too much red horse earlier and it was my first time to drink that stuff and so far it was good. i was so thirsty (o baka sabik lang sa alcohol!) i drank a lot and that made me a bit tipsy. ang lakas ng amats ko kanina! hehe i was so hyper i sang a lot of songs at the karaoke and i think it was the first time my friends saw me like that. yikes! it's not that i am embarrassed or something.. it's just that sometimes i think i restrict too much of myself to let them know me better.

my batchmates thinks i'm shy and quiet. well, they're right on the quiet part but, shy? really? am i really a shy person? uhmm.. i don't think so. most of the time i just don't have anything to say to a person that's why they think i'm shy. anyway, most of them said that i am nice and kind. totoo kaya yun? maybe. anyway, i enjoy being with them. i hope i could spend some time with most of them not just the ones i am often seen talking with. some of them even commented that they want me to talk to them more.

last friday we had our first day of ojt and our calls were monitored. 20 out of 60+ calls that day were monitored by specialists to check how we're doing and if we met their expectations. it was so frustrating when we had irate callers, when we can't find a listing immediately and had to ask for assistance, frustrating when you can't give a right listing right away. God, please help us! i hope we all pass. i heard some of my batchmates are planning to quit the training. of course i understand their reasons. most of us are having a hard time and we're doing our best for this job but sometimes i know it can be frustrating not being able to focus and improve as well. i want this job. there are times i keep on asking myself why i am here and looking for answers to my questions can be so tiring.

ok. till next post!